any closing remarks?

Let me explain the title. I feel it's that time to end my blogging career for a few reasons. First, I'm tired of telling people what I do. Your lives are plenty interesting enough. Second, know that this blog doesn't encapsulate my life. Too many people have access to this material for me to tell you all what I really think of everything. But such is the way things are. Finally, I think now is the time to bring everything to an end because I have written here for over two years. Over 150 posts about things that happened in my life.

If I look back at the last two and a half years, I realize that this was truly a period of growth. Simply put, growth is defined by suffering and agony. Nobody can tell you that the late teenage years are a cakewalk, and I'm no exception. I have seen my share of tough times. But I can't really complain, seeing as I saw some of my favorite memories during these times. When I think about my life before these last few years, I think of innocence. I didn't know pain. I didn't know heartbreak. And I sure as hell didn't know suffering. Before this time, I used to think that suffering was watching the pirates lose season after season or losing a close baseball game. Sometimes that isn't fun, but there are things much worse that will happen to you. I cannot describe in words how valuable these last two and a half years have been for me as an individual that will enter the "real" working world sooner than later. For those of you that have read this blog the whole way through(I know there are very few who read from the beginning) I both thank you and apologize to you. Back then, my writing was terrible. It has improved gradually throughout these two years. Also, I apologize for the many posts where reason was bypassed for pure emotion. I've "obliterated" daniel negreanu, shared my uneducated thoughts on youth baseball, and occasionally whined about things. However, for the most part, I have kept an even keel for the majority of my posts. I have got to post some of my poetry. Because of this blog, I have a timeless record of what this period in my life was like. I don't believe that any other time in my life will I meet and say goodbye to so many different people. If you think about, your parents have probably associated with the same people for many years because those people are stagnant individuals. They aren't moving around and their attitudes about each other don't change much. That's the way we'll all be some day, just our boring old lives. So you have to enjoy being young, because I can guess being old is gonna be a bitch. I wouldn't substitute the friendships that I've made and lessons that I've learned for anything. Those things are of true value because in my mind, they are irreplaceable. So for one final time, I'm giving you a blog entry about what happened in my life. Enjoy folks.

In regards to my book, I'm doing so-so on it. I've yet to finish reading it and I'm not sure if I'm going to be able to finish it. Other than that though, it has been a very entertaining book to read. It has consumed my life for the past week and I've only gotten to page 400/1070 on it. I'm not sure what I'm going to do when classes start. Other than that, I haven't really been all that busy with things. This past week was basically one of relaxation(for the most part) because PSU starts a week later than everyone else. Today, I read my book for awhile then went bowling for the first time in a long time. I only threw two games, but I could feel it coming back to me at the end of the second game. We did not throw a third, but I guess that I would have broken 200 had we done so. I'll save you the memories of high school bowling because that would really be going off on a tangent. After that, immekus picked me up and we went over creighton's house. We chilled for awhile and then decided to play a holdem game. I think for the most part, I played the best holdem that I've played in a long time. I ended up getting down to heads up with ieraci and we chopped it up. Side gaming was enjoyable as always. At skyview, the atmosphere is extremely cut throat. It's like nine dudes swarming through the jungle trying to kill each other with machetes. Okay, that was officially the worst metaphor ever. On the other hand, home game side gaming is fun because you're with friends. Everyone knows that for the most part, the money stays within the collection. Nobody is really killing the game everytime that we play, and there is no rake to rape us in the ass. For me, side gaming was up and down. Most of the games that we play are 1 or 2A PLH or PLO. PLH is one of my better games, but I never seem to get dealt anything. In PLO, i need to hit flops because my variety of starting hands is much too liberal. I remember at least twice tonight during side games where I made a bad decision that led to me losing the pot. Oh well, nobody plays perfect right?

So that is that. Take it for what it is. Almost certainly, this is my last post. I'm ready to close the book on one chapter of my life and embark onto the next. I wish everyone the best with whatever they do in life. Do what makes you happy. It is okay to work hard and make lots of money, but don't lose sight of the reason that you're working so hard: your family, your friends, and relaxation. I don't claim to know the secret of life. I barely know how to run my little life and I am just trying to share some of my experiences in life with other people through these words. I will leave you with the immortal words of some of my favorite people and then the lyrics to a song which I discovered rather recently. Other than that, godspeed. Godspeed to whatever you're after in life.

Quotes-

"That's what I love about them high school girls. I get older and they stay the same age."
-Wooderson

"I feel sorry for people who don't drink. When they wake up in the morning, that's as good as they're going to feel all day.”
- Frank Sinatra

“I know the answer! The answer lies within the heart of all mankind! The answer is twelve? I think I'm in the wrong building.”
-Charles M. Schulz

"Nothing takes the taste out of peanut butter quite like unrequited love."
-Charles M. Schulz

"Sometimes I lie awake at night and I ask, "Why me?", then a voice answers "Nothing personal, your name just happened to come up."
-Charles M. Schulz

"Why can't we get all the people together in the world that we really like and then just stay together? I guess that wouldn't work. Someone would leave. Someone always leaves and then we have to say good-bye. I hate good-byes. I know what I need. I need more hellos."
-Charles M. Schulz

"Education is an admirable thing, but it is well to remember from time to time that nothing that is worth knowing can be taught."
-Oscar Wilde

"We are all in the gutter, but some of us are looking at the stars."
-Oscar Wilde

"It is neither good nor bad, but thinking makes it so.”
-William Shakespeare

"What lies behind you and what lies in front of you, pales in comparison to what lies inside of you.”
-Ralph Waldo Emerson

The Riddle
Five For Fighting

There was a man back in '95
Whose heart ran out of summers
But before he died, I asked him

Wait, what's the sense in life
Come over me, Come over me

He said,

Son why you got to sing that tune
Catch a Dylan song or some eclipse of the moon
Let an angel swing and make you swoon
Then you will see... You will see

Then he said,

Here's a riddle for you
Find the Answer
There's a reason for the world
You and I...

Picked up my kid from school today
Did you learn anything cause in the world today
You can't live in a castle far away
Now talk to me, come talk to me

He said, Dad I'm big but we're smaller than small
In the scheme of things, well we're nothing at all
Still every mother's child sings a lonely song
So play with me, come play with me

And Hey Dad

Here's a riddle for you
Find the Answer
There's a reason for the world
You and I...

I said,

Son for all
I've told you
When you get right down to the
Reason for the world...
Who am I?

There are secrets that we still have left to find
There have been mysteries from the beginning of time
There are answers we're not wise enough to see

He said... You looking for a clue
I Love You free...

The batter swings and the summer flies
As I look into my angel's eyes
A song plays on while the moon is hiding over me
Something comes over me

I guess we're big and I guess we're small
If you think about it man you know we got it all
Cause we're all we got on this bouncing ball
And I love you free
I love you freely

Here's a riddle for you
Find the Answer
There's a reason for the world
You and I...

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