oh yeah

I found this list of my most played songs on my computer, and found it interesting. Maybe you will too

1. 100 years- Five For Fighting
2. Wish You Were Here- Pink Floyd
3. Holiday- Green Day
4. Pieces- Sum 41
5. The Middle- Jimmy Eat World
6. Intro- Ludacris
7. Superman- Five For Fighting
8. Mr. Brightside- The Killers
9. Jesus of Suburbia- Green Day
10. Wake Me Up When September Ends- Green Day
11. She's a Rebel- Green Day
12. Time- Pink Floyd
13. Get Back- Ludacris
14. Homecoming: The Death of St. Jimmy- Green Day
15. Good Riddance(Time of Your Life)- Green Day
16. Drops of Jupiter- Train
17. Whatsername- Green Day
18. Fix You- Coldplay
19. We're All to Blam- Sum 41
20. American Idiot- Green Day
21. Boulevard of Broken Dreams- Green Day
22. St. Jimmy- Green Day
23. Tuesday's Gone- Lynard Skynard
24. Are We the Waiting- Green Day
25. Give Me Novacaine- Green Day
26. Number One Spot- Ludacris
27. There's No Solution- Sum 41
28. Roll With the Changes- REO Speedwagon
29. Extraordinary Girl- Green Day
30. Work- Jimmy Eat World
31. Comfortably Numb- Pink Floyd
32. The Joker- Steve Miller Band
33. Broadway- The Goo Goo Dolls
34. Take the Money and Run- Steve Miller Band
35. Pride- U2
36. Give a Little Bit- Supertramp
37. Another Brick in the Wall- Pink Floyd
38. Mary Jane's Last Dance- Tom Petty
39. Slide- The Goo Goo Dolls
40. Big Pimpin- Jay Z
41. No Reason- Sum 41
42. Losing a Whole Year- Third Eye Blind
43. Imagine- John Lennon
44. Some Say- Sum 41
45. Purple and White- Mr. Stultz
46. Hanging by a Moment- Lifehouse
47. Brain Damage- Pink Floyd
48. Helena- My Chemical Romance
49. Speed of Sound- Coldplay
50. New Year's Day- U2
51. Black Balloon- The Goo Goo Dolls
52. Letterbomb- Green Day
53. Tear It Up- Young One
54. Hey You- Pink Floyd
55. Heart of Gold- Neil Young
56. Dirt Off Your Shoulder- Jay Z
57. Song for America- Kansas
58. Crash Into Me- Dave Matthews Band
59. New York- JaRule
60. Better Off Without You- The Clarks
61. Encore- Jay Z
62. Rock N' Me- Steve Miller Band
63. Born to Run- Bruce Springstein
64. Simple Man- Lynard Skynard
65. Angels With Dirty Faces- Sum 41
66. Sunday Bloody Sunday- U2
67. Dust in the Wind- Kansas
68. Highway Blues- Marc Seales
69. Thunder Road- Bruce Springstein
70. Harvest- Neil Young
71. Take it Easy- The Eagles
72. Who'll Stop the Rain- CCR
73. Breakfast at Tiffany's- Deep Blue Something
74. Narcolepsy- Third Eye Blind
75. How's It Going To Be- Third Eye Blind
76. Keep on Loving You- REO Speedwagon
77. Basketcase- Green Day
78. Jet Airliner- Steve Miller Band
79. Take the Long Way Home- Supertramp
80. N Dey Say- Nelly
81. All of Nothing- O Town
82. Moment of Clarity- Jay Z
83. With or Without You- U2
84. Hotel California- The Eagles
85. Hold On- Kansas
86. The Next Episode- Dr.Dre
87. Here I Go Again On My Own- Whitesnake
88. Champagne Supernova- Oasis
89. Free Fallin'- Tom Petty
90. Stairway to Heaven- Led Zepplin
91. Lean on Me- Bill Withers
92. Slipping Away- Sum 41
93. Jumper- Third Eye Blind
94. Don't Do Me Like That- Tom Petty
95. The Long and Winding Road- The Beatles
96. Take It On The Run- REO Speedwagon
97. A Message- Coldplay
98. Gimme Three Steps- Lynard Skynard
99. 25 or 6 to 4- Chicago
100. Peaceful Easy Feeling- The Eagles

mh

the trifecta

This weekend was a weekend that I'll look back on for the rest of my life, perhaps for both good and bad reasons. On friday, bradburn and I hung out and played a little 1/2 limit. The first table we hit was extremely soft and within ten minutes we had doubled up and decided to leave. The second table was a little more difficult but we were also hit with two gutshots on the river that left us down four bets. Eventually, ben hreha came over and we played both .25/.50 NL and an 11 dollar SNG at once. In the SNG, our AKs outdrew KK on the first hand and we were dominating chip leaders going into the final table. That of course ended when we had the following sequence of hands: 55, 55, 88, 10 10, three of four lost, the last being where we went in for about 4k and got called by JJ after some dude appeared he would muck, but called with 3 seconds left on the clock. From there, we organized a live home game. Legends such as gerner, brandon, carmelo, and jeff creighton frequented that game that night. Even nick immekus, fresh off his date with the.....lovely tara joined the game later. We played side games to begin with and I promptly dropped 5 buyins in the first hour. The last pot before we started the holdem tournament was one that will live on in south baldwin history for the rest of time. The game was PLO, and it was gerner, ben, and I to the flop with brandon being allin. Flop was K 6 4 with the K and 6 being clubs. I flopped a club flush and gutshot so both ben and I called gerner's 60 dollar bet. Turn was a 3, and ben went allin for 135. I wanted to call so badly but passed and gerner ended up calling. River was a 7 and my 58 would have got there. Ben scooped the biggest pot in home game history. In the holdem game, I struggled the whole time to break the 2k mark in chips. I ended up going allin in a race situation and I lost it. After playing a little ping pong, we returned to side gaming and I went on an absolute tear for two hours straight. I got out of the hole and ended up going up after gerner and I flipped a coin for a decent amount. I won the first, he won the second, and I won the third meaning I ended up winning. Saturday, I worked from 9-5 and I just kind of chilled and slept for awhile. Gerner came and got me around 11 and we went up and picked up king and headed over to immekuse's house. We played some side games and I started down big again. Then murph showed up and we decided to have a beer pong tournament. After winning my first two games with style, nick and I began to just get stupid. From what I recall we played several heads up games for amounts ranging from 20-50 dollars. I won all of them as he had taken the brute of the beatings in beer pong. I ended up winning the tourny and nick, gerner, and I decided to play side games more. Gerner was the only sober one, yet for some reason he couldn't use it to his advantage. The only thing I remember from that stretch was the last hand where we did the bill murphy paycheck game. The three of us each put up what murph's weekly paycheck was worth and did a game of high card to see who would take down all the money. I won it with a Kh. After several incidents that I will not elaborate on, we headed to dennys. If you want to hear the dennys story, i'll be more than happy to tell it, just not here. I got dropped off at a little past sunrise and crashed until about 11, when I woke up to eat breakfast. After eating, I realized that I was still really tired and I went back to sleep for awhile. I woke up again at 3 and went outside for about 2 hours. It was a really nice day and almost 90 degrees outside. After taking care of a few things, I decided to go to skyview to play poker. This would be the third night of the trifecta, and if I was lucky, I could go 3 for 3 for showing profit. When I got there, they were starting a new 3/6 table and I decided to jump in the action. I won a few dollars before my seat at 1/2 NL opened up. I had planned on playing a monster session(time wise) and did just that. I ended up playing about 9 hours and showed a profit of 1.5 buyins. In the first three hours, I had my aces cracked by sevens and 10d5d, cracked aces with J3(the guy was furious when I hit my two outer on the river), had my nut straight busted on the river by runner runner full house, and cracked kings with sixes. It was a hell of a run to say the least. At about 12 I started hitting a groove that lasted until about 2:30. Then, for about 30 minutes straight I had every single one of my bluffs called down and I was dead even for the night. I battled my way back and at 6 am we were forced out by the cleaning crew. I really think that's about as long as I can play cards because I was just really, really tired and getting pretty bored after that. So that's that. I saw the sun rise the last two days, something that I had only seen twice before this. I guess whenever I got up early for high school I saw it every day, but I usually never payed attention. I will say that I had a great deal of fun this weekend, even if it came at the cost of only getting about 10 hours of sleep for the entirety of the weekend. Alright, I'm about to pass out so I'm off to bed, hoping to sleep until maybe 12(it's 7 am right now) and then I plan on going golfing and then going to nayhouse's for a cookout.

Until next time,
mh

for the second year in a row....

I have registered to play in the PokerStars World Blogger Championship of Online Poker!

This Online Poker Tournament is a No Limit Texas Holdem event exclusive to Bloggers.

Registration code: 7330476

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I'm playing in that thing

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I saw this once somewhere, and I liked the idea, so here it goes.

Friday night, I decided that I wanted to see ___________ so I went and saw it with ________ and _______. It was a good time for the most part except for the fact that it was crowded. I really ________ the movie. When it was over, we decided that we could ________________ or __________. I was tired, so I just dropped off _______ and ________ and went to bed. I couldn't really sleep well, mostly because I was thinking about _________. I'm not really sure why, but I was. I woke up saturday morning and went to work early. I was actually excited to see ______ at work for the first time in awhile. I still don't like working with ______ but that is part of it I guess. _______ told me that his niece was graduating and said he was going to get messed up there. I love this blank thing. I ate at subway and saw ________ there who I absolutely hate. Seriously, turn your hat around and learn how to play baseball. I didn't see __________ at the bakery and my day went downhill. After work, ________ came over my house and we ___________ and then got _________ to eat. The fries were much too salty though for the meal to be good. Later _______ and ________ picked us up and we went to try to catch ________ at 8:00. Once it was sold out at lowes, we went over to starbucks but I stayed behind and played ms pacman. The joystick was messed up and I kept crashing into the enemies. _______ said that starbucks kept ____________. People should really ___________ less and ___________ more, because I tasted the drink and it tasted good to me. Oh well, we went to southland 9 and caught the 10:00 showing. During the movie, _________ abandoned me(kinda) and __________ seemed like a really long movie. I got to bed around 1:15 and woke up the next day at 9:00. Work went by so fast because we were busy and __________ and __________ are always fun to work with. I can't believe ________ is quitting, but I understand why. If I ______________________________ , I would too. After that, I came home and relaxed and watch the cavs lose. Then _________ told me that __________________________. I really didn't mind, because _____________________________ and I respect ________ a lot. I hope they have fun. I ____________ after my _______ left _____________. Also, I ate ___________ and ______________ and they were good. I then fell asleep and was awoken by my brother telling me had 4 rbi's and got the win in his game. At about 9, I went to _________ to play cards. I ended up losing ___________ for the night in a 1/2 game. The best hands I saw were fives once and deuces once. I had AQ and AJ, and every time I made a play at a pot, _______________________________! Quite frustrating to say the least. At the end, I made a stupid call for ___ dollars against a guy who looked like his name would be carlos gonzalez or something like that. He was making bluffs all day and finally woke up with AK against my A5. Then I moved allin with 22 and got called down by scholz's KK(his 14th big pocket pair of the night) _________________________ to say the least. I rode home thinking __________________________ or my ____ bankroll is going to start taking a real beating.

Okay, that was refreshing. Tomorrow I'm going to try to get some reading done and a few things need done around the house.

Until next time,
mh

i hate you blogger

yes, you swallowed my post for the second time in as many days....

As you may have heard, my phone is currently in four pieces and after taking it down to the sprint store and them telling me that i can either pay 125 bux and extend my contract with them for another 2 years or pay 150 dollars to get out of the contract now. She also said that I could continue paying my bill until december but i wouldn't have a phone to make any calls. When she said that, I almost smacked her but just decided to walk out. How fucking stupid do you think I am? Or should I be asking how stupid are you?

Recently, things have just been going downhill again. It's just stupid stuff. I really thought that I was beginning to unslump myself. While watching one of the news stations one night about a week and a half ago a lady was talking to a caller that said that she had missed out on the real estate boom and lost probably 500k in the whole deal. The lady who was giving her advice told her to realize that there is nothing that she could do about it. Instead of telling yourself that you have the worst luck and that you are always in the wrong place at the wrong time, say to yourself that you have to take command of the situation. That has been my philosophy lately, and it had been working up until the last three days. I worked 24 hours in three days at work and felt good when it was all done. I felt like I had accomplished something and was able to achieve a lot of things when that stint was done. Then the last two days have been like watching the dominoes collapse again. Yesterday my phone breaks and i get a piece of metal driven partially through my forehead at work. If it had hit closer to my brain, I probably would have been decapitated. I got away with some lost blood and a small scar. Perhaps that's the way that you have to look at things. As bad as it was, it could have been worse. Maybe we had good luck to not have things have been worse. Today I was playing basketball and drove to the hoop, pulled up, and glided into the wet grass. From there, I lost my footing and gleefully rolled five feet until my back met the iron post that we have in our backyard. What are the chances, seriously? I can't really say anything though, after that I scored 27 straight points and we won the game. Tonight was an interesting night at skyview. A lot of good young players were there. I just got eaten alive and I don't even want to think about it. I had three big suckouts where I could have gotten even by winning just one of them. I'll give you two examples. I had Kh Jh and flop is 7h 8h Kd. I bet out 50 and get called. Turn is 9s and I bet 100 and get raised allin. I call immediately and he turns over 10 J. No heart on the river and I lose another big pot to the turn. Last hand and I have AQ and it is raised in front of me preflop by shane. I raise allin and get two callers. Flop is q 10 10 and to make a long story short my AQ lost to AJ and A10. I was just so sick. Sunday I'll give you another situation. I have aces UTG and i raise to 12 in a 1/2 NL game and some guy(we'll call him idiofaggot for the rest of this section) raised to 45. I called idiofag's raise and the flop was 9 8 6. I fired 100 into the pot so that he would only get 2:1 on a straight draw. He called, and the turn was gin, a 2. I bet another 100 and he raised allin. I called, and he flipped over 62! I was sickened. Idiofag hit a 6 on the river to hit a boat. I was just shocked after that pot. I don't think I remembered my name until I got home. I'm done boring you with bad beat stories. I always hated people who whined and complained about their luck. I actually got joy out of listening to how bad their lives had been running lately. Now I'm that stupid idiot complaining about how much my life sucks. But now I'm done with that. I'm taking control of the situation and burning away all the little kid, bitchy, whiny shit from my brain and going to start taking it and keeping my mouth shut like i used to. I know it's coming, but it isn't going to all be bad.

Until next time,
mh

tragedy strikes

today, while playing floor hockey, i rolled on my side and forgot that my phone was in there. Fucking piece of japanese sprint shit broke into four pieces. Come on, seriously. How do you break on the first time that you get rolled over. I'd post more but I'm headed out to best buy so they can tell me that my warranty isn't good anymore. I'll be putting up a longer post probably later tonight about what's been going on lately.

mh

on the rise

After almost two months of being stuck in a lethargic state of mind, I think I'm starting to rise again. Being a person who likes to reflect back upon things, I took into consideration what 2006 has been like so far. It has really been a losing battle in a lot of aspects of poker(minus poker). Poker is the only thing that seems to have gone right up until this point. Starting about half way through january it's just been domino theory; the domino collapsing after the one before it making a bigger thud. Not to use too many bad analogies/cliches but when you dig a deep hole, you need a big ladder to get out. I wouldn't really call it depression because depression, in my opinion, is when one specific event is holding you down. Lethargy is when you wake up refreshed and hear that another bad thing has happened to you or someone close to you. I can't really complain though, no "knockout" punches yet. Just a bunch of little jabs that wore me down. Like the buddha said, suffering is universal. Perhaps the only thing you have in common with Tiger Woods, Prince Charles, or George Bush is that at one point or another you will experience suffering. Bad streches are a part of life, but so are good streches.

This weekend was nothing great to speak of. Last weekend I found that routes 51, 43 and 70 all connect as nayhouse and I proceeded on our longest road trip yet. It was a good one though. I love being lost in the middle of nowhere. Nobody knows your name and you're in a place that you've never been in before. That sunday I played in a 1/2 game that I think I ended up winning something like 7o dollars after 5 hours. When you factor in that the smoke inhalation probably takes a day off your life for every hour you're in there, -EV(expected value) is attained. It was actually a fun game to play in and I seem to make friends with foreign players faster than Americans. It really is the truth that foreigners are less concerned with money than Americans are. I feel like "one of them" at the table. I play poker not for the money, but because I really like the game. It's one of the few arenas where good strategy and versatility are quintessential elements to being a winning player.

This weekend I hung out with leigh, bradburn, carly, and eventually christine. The four of us went mini golfing and beside the fact that I was doing horrible and it was rather cold, it was enjoyable. Apparently bets were supposed to be made but nobody would be me anything. Speaking of bets, if you haven't checked out Pauly's blog yet, do so. He's one of the funniest and best writers out there and his latest post about glass eyes had me going good. The link for his site is taopoker.blogspot.com. On saturday, I had to work from 9-5. Once again, nothing really to speak of except nayhouse almost getting thrown out of the store in one of the funnier moments of 2006. That night, I was able to study for history for about three hours and then nayhouse and I shot pool and discussed the finer aspects of life. Personally, I think I'm better than him at pool yet he continues to kick my ass in every game we play. Oh well, I tilt for 5 minutes and then tell some story to get off tilt. On sunday, I had a very long six hours at work, but it was worth it. I went to the freeroll at skyview and there were so many people there. I got entered in the 20 dollar survivor pool plus the 300 for first place. I looked at my starting table and didn't see many threats to speak of. On the third hand I attempted a bluff and got called down by second pair. About fifteen hands in I moved my last 5600 in with 33 and got called by AJ and...AJ. In this spot, 33 is good about 60% of the time. The flop was K Q 2 rainbow and I was jus thinking about what I was going to do with those 17k chips I was about to get. Well, I didn't have to think too hard as a J spiked on the turn and there was no 2 outer on the river to save me. What really sent me tilting was the lady who said that she started with the best hand and ended with the best hand. So yes, I tilted in a freeroll. I sat down at a 30 dollar satellite for awhile because there were no NL games that had started yet. My bad fortune continued when I had QJ and the flop came 9 10 Q and I pushed allin and got called by 10 J. Of course, an 8 came on the river and we chopped. The same kid called two hands later a hand in which I had AA on a K 10 9 board and he had K J. A queen promptly came up to end my day there. I sat down at a 1/2 NL game a little later and on the first hand I had K 8 in the SB. Flop was K 8 5 and I bet the pot and got two calls. Turn was 6 which was fine by me. I bet 1.5 times the pot and a solid kid who I had played with before smooth called. The river came a 4 and he promptly bet out about half the size of the pot. I looked him and said "6 7 eh". I reluctantly called and he showed 6 7. Even after that hit, I ended up coming back to almost even before moving to 5/5. One big hand for me happened against afif where I had QJ. Flop was Q 4 2 and I bet out 2/3 the pot. He called immediately and the turn came a 2. I bet the pot and again he called. The river was a K and I checked. He bet half the pot and I called. He flipped over AK and I could only shake my head. I continued to play very good and after a rebuy I was up about one buyin and it was about 10 PM. Then something happened. I proceeded to play the worst 30 minutes of poker in my life. I was just playing like an absolute amateur. I can't explain what happened other than I had a complete mental lapse for half an hour. I was playing so bad I felt like asking my tablemates what hand beat what. At 10:30 I ran out of there with my original buyin which left me down about 50 on the night.

Today I woke up extra early so I could finish my last minute history studying. I felt pretty good going into the final. When I looked at it at first, I saw that it exposed some of my glaring weaknesses. First, it talked about chapters in the Thurow book that I hadn't reviewed. And one of the seven essays was about Nixon and the silent majority, something that I know about but didn't review thoroughly. There were several other questions where an educated guess was the best I was going to do(who cares about the key elements of the social rules revolution anyways?). I came home and spent the better part of the day outside getting things done and playing about 2 hours of basketball. I went to study for geography and got through chapter 9 and fell asleep. I'm really glad that I didn't actually read that book, because I was getting tired just reviewing it. I woke up and was joyed to see that ortiz hit that 3 run homer to seal the game for the red sox. In a way I kind of feel bad for johnny damon when 40,000 crazed boston fans were shouting his name at the end of the game. You could see in his eyes that he missed playing in front of the drunk fenway fans and perhaps he was somewhat regretful that he went to new york. I'm sorry, but I hate the yankees. I spent the rest of the night sorting some things out and now I'm here unable to sleep because of the nap I took earlier.

After going back and reading through Pauly's blog again, I realized something: his post about being honest with yourself seemed to glare right at me. Lately, I did not want to admit that something was wrong. Unless you're honest with yourself in all aspects of life, you cannot begin to advance yourself as a human being. You can wear a mask for awhile, but eventually people will begin to see through that mask. It's just a matter of time before the weaknesses in your life that you have denied exist before begin to show through. To quote him almost exactly, he says that "we must strive to find the good things that we do and to address the things that we do poorly." I've been trying to think of things that I do good in my life. If I put my mind to it I have a lot of creativity. I can make people laugh. I can be an articulate and convincing speaker if it's something that I care about. I have trouble taking a lot of things seriously. I sometimes reflect on people's bad characteristics rather than the good ones that they exhibit. Sometimes, there is a lack of control of emotions on my part and that can spill over to parts of my life that I don't want it to.

So there you go. This has to be one of my longer posts so I hope you enjoy it.

new poem today. It's just a segment of a work by marvell since the original version is much longer. Enjoy.

To His Coy Mistress(segmented)
By: Andrew Marvell

But at my back I always hear
Time's winged chariot hurrying near;
And yonder all before us lie
Deserts of vast eternity.
Thy beauty shall no more be found,
Nor, in thy marble vault, shall sound
My echoing song; then worms shall try
That long preserv'd virginity,
And your quaint honour turn to dust,
And into ashes all my lust.
The grave's a fine and private place,
But none I think do there embrace.

Now therefore, while the youthful hue
Sits on thy skin like morning dew,
And while thy willing soul transpires
At every pore with instant fires,
Now let us sport us while we may;
And now, like am'rous birds of prey,
Rather at once our time devour,
Than languish in his slow-chapp'd power.
Let us roll all our strength, and all
Our sweetness, up into one ball;
And tear our pleasures with rough strife
Thorough the iron gates of life.
Thus, though we cannot make our sun
Stand still, yet we will make him run.

mh